pinwheel
These days, in these staying-at-home days, I frequently find myself back in the industry vs. inferiority stage. Being in the early twenties, the reality of "quarter life crisis" is unavoidable, if not, consuming. In the awareness of the responsibility I have as a daughter, in this age, it is almost impossible to not judge myself. Questions such as, "Why aren't you working?" "Can't you be as b usy as your peers?" "Why don't you socialise more?" or even other harsher convictions float in my head almost everyday. People would say "Life is like a marathon, instead of a sprint." Focusing on our own development, rather than always comparing ourselves to others would be a more plausible, friendly, healthier option. Still, easier said than done. No matter how hard I repress those unproductive thoughts, one small moment could bring them all back to life. In a second, I find my self-esteem hitting rock bottom. And once again, I judge ...